Start of the rest of the real me

Well the 12 wbt has started. I will post my before pics but be warned they are not nice at all.

On Sunday the 11th I did my fitness test
1km - 8.19
Wall Sit - 1.37 although I was screaming twinkle twinkle little star at the end, anything to keep my mind off what I was doing.
Flexibility - +14cms, wow I can bend hehehe
Push-up - 23 in a minute on knees, and I don't go low enough.

I was quite surprised with my numbers, I jogged 1 1/2 laps of the 1 km it was 2 1/2 laps, I thought I would be over the 10 mins for sure and that I would be crawling at the end.
The wall sit also surprised me I use to be4 able to do them for 2 mins, but that was about 5 years ago lol. It was pure grit that kept me there and also the fact that I feel this level of ownership over the facebook page and I needed to show them I could do it.

So I have had two days of eating right, and have done exercise on both days. I am feeling more positive and more focused which helps. It is weigh in day tomorrow and that is always such a hard day for me I am so worried about not losing weight, which is a possibility as until yesterday my food was crap, but I tend to get caught up in not losing and feel really negative. So I have decided to post on the facebook page that I will be exercising at the lake at 9:30, that way if I do have a bad weigh in I know I have kept myself on track.

Well food wise I have had
Breakfast
Special K, Boiled egg with 2 pieces of wholegrain toast with avocado.

Lunch
Curried egg, lettuce and sprout sandwich, Chicken with herbed yogurt sauce and salad.

Tea
Chicken with Herbed yogurt sauce and salad, char-grilled beef with salsa.

Amazingly I have liked avocado, last time i tried it, I didn't like it, mind you that was 12 yrs ago lol.

Well OK I think I am heading in the right direction.
Big loves to everyone xox

Where to from here

Well yet again I haven't been consistent with my blog. I am just finding that my head is so not where it should be. I now have all the info and the 12WBT starts on Monday, tomorrow there is a few of us doing our fitness test, and tonight I will be doing my pictures and me4asuerments. Not looking forward to any of those things at all.

I am finding it really hard to even want to do this, it all feels to hard already and I am feeling some what defeated at the moment and over come by everything. I am really hoping that I can just do robot mode and do what needs to be done and that some where along the line my head will follow.

I really am trying to get in here more often. Tomorrow I will have my fitness stats and also my before pic to show you all,

Danielle

Food for Monday 29th and plan for tomorrow

Well
Breakfast
special K with skim milk
Snack
fried mushrooms, ham, eggs on wholemeal toast
Lunch
Salad wrap with roast beef
Tea
Low Fat oven baked Chicken Parma, steam veggies, grilled zucchini and sweet potato mash
Snack
Low fat yogurt 100 grams and 3 strawberries.

Water 1.4 liters

Treadmill for 15 mins, was aiming for 25 but someone woke up lol.

Tomorrow exercises

I am thinking Kinects at 11 am, walk at 2pm and treadmill when Jhett goes to sleep.

My commitment

I commit to respecting and honouring myself by eating nourishing foods and using my body for what it is designed, physical activity. I am committed to respecting and supporting myself through erasing my negative self-talk and excuses. I am committed to transforming my body into a power house, to completing in a body sculpting competition – to highlight my strength and tone, to becoming an accomplished Burlesque performer – to highlight the sexiness that is my body and personality and to running a Marathon with Fi in 12 months time – to highlight my endurance, grit and staying power.

I am committed to doing this through consistency, organisation, belief in those that know better than me and my ability to fake it till I make it. I am committed to exercising 6 days per week, planning and sticking to my menu plan and completing all task’s set to the best of my ability and 10% more at all times. I am committed to supporting other through their journey and allowing myself to believe the advice and support I give to others. I am committed to making myself the best version of myself I can be through following the 12 wbt program at all times.

Ummmmmmmmm I just dont know

Hey everyone.

So much for posting everyday.

I just can not get my head around actually walking the walking and not just talking the talk. I am full of advice and support and encouragement for everyone else but I just can't seem to transfer that to myself.

Things aren't to bad at the moment, emotionally things have slowed down but I just feel like I kinda don't live in my body at the moment, like I am disconnected some where along the line.

I am trying to sort myself out, trying to get back to some sort of even playing field.

I will work on getting here more regularly, I am thinking at night to plan my next day and to update on the days activity and food. Maybe that will help me to just do what needs to be done.

Ok well I will be back tonight.......

Welcome back

Hey Everyone, big shout out to Ms Bianca, this is for you my love

I know I have been missing in action for quite a while now, the last few weeks have been a bit full on emotionally and I have really fallen off the wagon.

Ms Melons and I are no longer friends due to some action that were taken by Ms Melons, this is something that caused me a great deal of pain and really sent my spiralling for a while. I have decided that I will not be her victim and I will be stronger and better.

I have joined up with the Michelle Bridges 12WBT program, pre-season started this week. I am excited and scared. We have a group of about 30 people all from this area who all seem really excited about the program and I am looking forward to getting to know them and share this journey with them.

My eating and excercise are so not happening at the moment. Today I haven't had any choc and although I haven't excercised I have a plan lol.

My task on the 12WBT program today is to write out all my excuses for why I dont JFDI (just fucking do it). I am avoiding it lol.

So I am now working on back to blogging everyday. So here we go again guys ,this time with renewed determination.

Here is the link to my youtube intro for the 12wbt program
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=teWoINv64qI&feature=related

Night all xox

22nd of june to 28th of June

Hey all

Sorry I have been missing in action a little. No particular reason just busy, and Jhett has been, still is unwell.

My eating hasn't been too bad in the last 6 days. I was doing really well until Sunday when I had some lemon meringue pies and scones with Jam. I realised that I still cant have something sweet or carb loaded as I still have the cravings afterwards. So I am fighting the cravings again...........so much fun.

Exercise hasn't been to bad, I actually exercised off my own back a couple of times which is a big achievement for me.

I am going to try and focus on my body image over the next few weeks and continuing to build my new skills into habits, rather than conscious decisions.

Food has been a bit hit and miss today.

Lunch
Sausage roll

Snack
Apple and Sultana cinnamon scone

Tea
Steak with steamed and grilled veggies

1 x Cappuccino
3 x cup of tea
1 litre of water

So back on track and back to blogging every day. I am working on taking some new photos to post. I will also do some measurements so that I can compare at the end of my journey.

Looking forward to being back on track tomorrow

Danielle xox